Doomsday

Man, this day was aweful. I'm so tired - I never knew someone could get this tired after a normal number of working hours. I think it's because I'm getting stressed about the future of this month. I don't want to mention any details but just know that tomorrow on a service usually with 5 residents, I'll be the only one that's normally there. They took a float resident to help cover the service but we have over 40 patients, half of them in the ICU and just me and the fellow to see them. I guess I won't be getting any sleep again tonight and you can kiss morning report goodbye again... Damn it!



I know that residency is hard and that there is a service component to it but there are times when I feel like this program prevents me from learning as odd as that sounds. I'm exhausted when I get home so I don't typically read much. I'm busy during the days and can't follow-up on everything like I would like to do. It's just very frustrating.



And... I'm on short call the last day of the rotation right before I switch - I think I may have mentioned that before but I'll say it again because it SUCKS. No wonder this job drives so many people to drink. Just have to push on and hope that greener pastures await.



On a lighter note, I've gotten a bunch of complements on my new haircut - check it out:





















Whatcha think ;)...
Neal Anson, MD